Thursday, August 8, 2013
I am so disappointed in myself. Honestly, I feel disgusting. I am not making wise food choices or getting proper exercise. I feel fat and lazy and unhealthy. I don't know how to keep myself motivated. I need some kind of help, but I don't know where to find it. I look back at pictures of myself after I lost weight, and I am jealous of myself. It isn't that I have gone back to what I was before the weight came off, but I am not that happy, healthy feeling person I was afterward either. The first couple years after I lost the weight, I felt great about myself. Suddenly I loved having my picture taken and shopping for new clothes. I wasn't perfect, but I had worked hard to get where I was, and by golly, I was proud of myself. I do not feel that today. I miss it.
Ramblings by Lauren